Recently, I caught myself being hyper-vigilant and overly concerned about my son’s safety. As I reflected on my behavior, I realized it was my raw Mama instinct kicking in—wanting to desperately "protect" him from the dangers of life as he prepares to go off to college (as if I could). I have to remind myself every day that I’m not the first, and I will certainly not be the last, Mama who has to say "goodbye" to her only child. It is incredibly difficult to let go. Yet, I know that this act of surrendering control is exactly what will grow my character, as well as his.

To add fuel to the already hot fire, my husband is starting a new schedule that will take him out of the house for the majority of each day. For over six years, we have worked together in close proximity, creating a perfect rhythm for our business and household. Now, the weight of those daily responsibilities is shifting onto my plate. Reflecting on my emotions around this, I realized how much I relied on his constant presence.

I am faced with the reality that life as I’ve known it is changing overnight. It’s not necessarily bad—just entirely different.
At the risk of being incredibly transparent, navigating all of these major life milestones at once can feel like a mid-life identity crisis. When everything around you shifts, it is completely natural to look in the mirror and ask: Who am I in this next chapter? How do I show up for my business, my community, and myself when the old rhythm is gone? I know I am not alone in this. Especially here in the Bay Area, there is an unspoken pressure to always look flawless, to "keep up with the Joneses," and to pretend we have it completely together. What I’ve found over the years is that almost everyone is navigating a hidden struggle. And I’ve found that when we are willing to be vulnerable, we don’t feel so isolated.
Years ago, I felt prompted by God to write to you every month in the hope that you would feel seen in this journey of life. So this month, this is what you get: me, navigating the messy, beautiful reality of open doors, new chapters, and learning to surrender the outcome.
If you are currently navigating a massive transition of your own, please know you are not alone. I am always just a phone call away, and God is most certainly always just a prayer away.